“I have hated words and I have loved them, and I hope I have made them right.” - Markus Zusak
Most of us, as human beings, crave to have our unique idiosyncrasies accepted and loved by someone else in that they are what make us who we are. What we always seem to leave out of this common desire, is that we first hope to meet someone who reflects what we see in ourselves back at us, to tell us our uniqueness is okay. While we try to be our complete and whole selves, equipped with a mindfulness of not being a copy, we can’t help but mold to the personalities of the people we admire. That person for me has been Taylor Swift. Middle school is a treacherous minefield and anyone that says differently probably peaked too early in life. That was at least the mindset I had at the end of eighth grade, bringing myself the comfort I needed after realizing I didn’t have any friends. I tried, oh, did I try. No one found the girl that felt like she had an eighty-year-old brain stuck in a fourteen-year-old body all that fun. I floated from group to group the majority of the year, until I realized no one seemed to understand me, aside from two of the most important people in my life. My mom, and Taylor Swift. Thus, I had two best friends that no one could take from me. Taylor has been one of the most important people in my life, guiding me through tears, providing me with smiles and courage, all while making me feel like she understood the depth of me and only me in a world of billions. My enthusiasm for Taylor is sewn deep within me, beside all the lessons I’ve learned from her. Taylor Swift has changed my life for the better, and with every fan she gains, I know one more person, like me, will unleash the kindness we’ve learned from our friend Taylor into a world that truly needs it.
1. Do not kill yourself. Killing yourself is very messy and your mother will cry over you. It is not beautiful or brave, and even if it was, you will not be around to see that.
2. Washing your hair is going to be a chore. But you should do it anyway. Because you will feel better about yourself.
3. Get up late. Have a lay in. Sleep past your alarm. You have a very long life ahead of you and for now you should appreciate the cold side of your pillow.
4. He is going to break your heart but he’s just another male human who finds it hard to deal with Mondays, too. So in a month you’ll wake up and you won’t even remember that little scar on his knuckle you kissed.
5. Don’t spend hours looking up what your name means on google. Your name is your name and you should go out there and do heroic and good deeds and give your name your own meaning.
6. Don’t fight your demons. Your demons are here to teach you lessons. Sit down with your demons and have a drink and a chat and learn their names and talk about the burns on their fingers and scratches on their ankles. Some of them are very nice.
7. Music is good for your soul. Rap music will energise you and boost your ego and pop music will cheer you up. Indie music will make you think and emotional songs will make you cry and think about that boy again. It’s healthy.
8. Victim complexes are not attractive. Boys and girls will not date you because you are sad. They are not going to date you and kiss your aching bones and cure you of your dragging depression. Wake up. Take a bath. Do your hair. Be attractive.
9. Sadness is not poetic. Depression is not beautiful. Laying in bed all day and eating too much is lazy and disgusting and it is not tragic or pretty. Get up. Go outside. Let the sun warm your bones. Live.
10. If it makes you happy, buy twenty of it. Dedicate your life to it. Print it on tv shirts and collect things and draw art of it. Do not care what people think. They are the unhappy people you need to avoid. The abuse they will hurl at you is painless compared to how sad they are. Pity them. Remain happy.
11. You are allowed to he angry. But the world is not working against you. The flowers do not bloom for you and when your mother shouts ask her if she is okay instead of thinking she hates you. She never will. The world walks beside you and is silent. It does not trip you up or carry you.
12. Day and night cycles are natural. Humans only sleep at night because we used to avoid predators in the dark because of our poor eyesight. Stay awake until 5am watching bad reality shows. Wake up at 7pm and have breakfast.
13. Eat when you are hungry. Being bored does not constitute a chocolate bar. Sleep with you are tired. Do not mindlessly obey the sleep at night rule. If you are not tired, do not sleep.”
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Everyone needs this on their blog.
I think the strongest kind of people are the people I’ve never been fortunate enough to meet. The people that turn a lock and welcome people inside. They give everything to the people around them and don’t ask for any of it in return. But they secretly want it. They tell themselves that they’ll get it when they least expect it. But they don’t. People take it all and runaway at the first sign of mistake. They grace others with forgiveness, but the worst part about forgiveness is you can give it forever and never get it back. And they will feel everything with everything they have. But they’re strong enough to move forward, to do it again. And again. And again. But they’ll always be broken birds. I’ll always be a broken bird.”